Life is Stressful

I think I having a stressful week. I feel a lot like I am not pleasing my Master. I constantly feel torn between what I know would make him truly happy, and making our daughter's life all it can be. It is hard to have no one to bounce ideas off of. No one besides Master to share my most intimate fears with. How do you tell the man you love so much that you don't know how to make him happy? I think every girl in my position struggles, I know my Master loves me or he wouldn't made me his wife. But I also know he gives up a lot everyday that he would love to have because I just don't have the strength at the end of the day to give him the all he wants and needs. What am I going to do when all my days are wrapped up in work and the children, and he is wrapped up in the other girl he wishes to add to our lives. I am so happy somedays to look for another, and someday it terrifies me. With him being sick, and the financial stress of finding a job. On top of his family and friends, and the house and roommate...I just feel so overwhelmed. Maybe that is what I am suppose to feel, I don't know. I had a good friend tell me today that when he knew me I didn't act like a slave, and now it makes me wonder am I the same I was two years ago? Has Master changed and I haven't? I wish I knew....maybe one day I will know....

I wish you a wonderful day.

Hana